19 weeks and thoughts on pregnancy

I'm 19 weeks today. Hard to believe I'm a week away from being half way thru this pregnancy.

I'm up 15 lbs. total, not having any real cravings, I'm in maternity pants but normal tops still, and sleep pretty good minus the potty interruptions 2-3 times a night.

Best moment of the week? Being back at work amongst the living. I've missed it and it is making me feel better.

It's been a hard two days for me. Yesterday, I made the mistake of looking thru pre-pregnancy pictures and I cried for a good hour. Listen, I know what some of you are thinking......."it's for a short time, you can loose the weight after, be grateful for being pregnant." I know. I am grateful and thankful. But, for someone who worked really hard to loose 25 lbs and was in almost the best shape of her life, being pregnant is depressing. I feel really bad about myself. I'm pale, gaining weight, can't run anymore, and I work and am surrounded by women all day in the beauty industry. It's hard. I get dressed and just feel ugly everyday. I've been praying for myself to focus on the positive, I'll be having a baby at the end of all this.

Honestly, sometimes I wish people would tell you all the non-fun things about pregnancy. Some women love being pregnant, I'm not one of them. It just makes me laugh when people make it sound like sunshine and roses when in actuality, there are a ton of things that are just............depressing.

Enough of my rant. These are all thoughts I know other women have (because I've talked to several about this) but no one likes to admit.

I think I'll feel better too once we (hopefully) find out if it's a boy or girl. March 6th can't come fast enough!

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17 weeks and other news

(Dave was not available for a picture today, bathroom it is :)

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along: 17 weeks

Size of baby: About 5 inches long, weighs about as much as a turnip

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 12 ish lbs. EEK! (Doctor says I'm doing well, not gaining too much and am on track. Thank goodness!)

Maternity Clothes: Bought a pair of pants for school and they are the best thing ever!

Gender: It’s up in the air, baby Petty didn’t want to share the goods J

Movement: I think I feel something late at night when I’m still, but I don’t really know what I’m “looking” for.

Sleep: I sleep okay. I’m up about 3-4 times a night to potty.

What I miss: Having a beer HA! Coffee! (I have an aversion to it somewhat. I have to REALLY need a cup to drink it).

Cravings: Coke. Salads.

Symptoms: Feeling good!

Best moment this week: Going to the doctor. Baby is measuring exactly where he/she should be!

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In other news, the lights in the Master bath/closet have decided to simply. stop. working. Poor Dave has been trying to fix it for a few days now, but he is going to have to wait until this weekend. Getting up to potty has been quite interesting in the dark. Ha! Hopefully, it's nothing too serious and he will be able to fix it without calling an electrician. We'll see.

I did get cleared to go back to work, soooooooo that means I'll be heading back to work for at least two days a week. I need to go back, having a baby is expensive! I'm actually looking forward to it, I miss all those Roadies and regulars.

I'm loving The Voice! I didn't watch it last season because I worked on the nights it came on, and I'm kind of bad about watching DVR'd shows. Blake Shelton and Adam Levine are too cute. It might be my new favorite show!

16 Weeks

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along: 16 weeks

Size of baby: About 4.5 inches long, about the size of an avocado

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 10 lbs. EEK!

Maternity Clothes: HAVE to go buy some this weekend.

Gender: I’m not sure yet……….we have an idea but we’ll see hopefully on Tuesday! J

Movement: None yet

Sleep: I sleep okay. I’m up about 3-4 times a night to potty.

What I miss: Tanning. Being proud of getting on the scale. Feeling pretty.

Cravings: Coke. Jalapeno chips

Symptoms: Feeling good!

Best moment this week: Being 4 months! Looking more pregnant than fat J

Pregnancy Info Overload

Ok. I know they say you should read and be "educated" on pregnancy stuff and labor but can I be honest? It literally scares the poop out of me.

I've been given several books lately, all ranging from pregnancy symptoms, to labor advice, to breastfeeding techniques, and how to raise your child. I like the weekly updates on my pregnancy because I feel like at least I know what my baby is doing in there. Lol. Once I start reading about labor, I'm done-zo. It freaks me out. I'm for sure one of those women who would rather walk in without any expectations or "the book said this" mentality.

Truthfully? I'm terrified of giving birth. TERRIFIED. And I'm a pretty tough cookie with a pretty high tolerance for pain. I kind of think its part of the reason I was so resistant to even think about being pregnant for so long. Nothing about reading information on labor is helping me with this fear either. So my answer? Stop reading. And make sure to get an epidural.

Sounds good huh?!

I know, I know. It's not that bad, you forget about it once the baby comes..........it still does not reduce the fear of the unknown. And that my friends is what it comes down too. Not having ever been thru child birth and going in blind.

I'm hoping my fear will disappear by the time July rolls around, but I'm not counting on it. Ha!

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Weekend Wrap Up

{Friday}

We went over to my parents house for some dinner and quality time with the family. Avery was already over there, so we got some play time in with her. She is at such a fun age right now. And, Dave was determine to win her over. She doesn't seem to remember him too much and every time he sees her, he just plays and plays with her. It drives him crazy when babies don't like him. HA! It's actually quite amusing.

{Saturday}

I had school all day (blah) and then Jenna, Jason, and Avery came over to bring us some baby stuff (all generic, we don't know the sex yet). They wanted to see our floors and then we went to eat at our favorite burger joint. Avery had a great time playing with the four toys we have here at the house. But mainly, she just wanted to sit on the bench we have in the entry way. "Ups!" she said about a dozen times.

{Sunday}

I had a busy day of grocery shopping and some cleaning. I did make an awesome dinner and then Dave and I watched this:

It's such a good movie. Funny, sad, real.........I highly recommend it if you haven't seen it yet.

I cried of course, but what's new? I seem to cry at everything lately!

Hope you have a great Monday! :)

15 Weeks

(**Yes, I'm already in my pj's. Please forgive me**)

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along: 15 weeks

Size of baby: About 4 inches, about the size of an apple

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 10 lbs. EEK!

Maternity Clothes: None yet. I went shopping for some…….but I think I can wait just a tad bit longer. I'm in that awkward "too small for maternity clothes, too big for my own" stage, so I got frustrated and left. HA! Pathetic.

Gender: I’m not sure yet……….we have an idea but we’ll see in a few weeks J

Movement: None yet but Dave is determined to feel something!

Sleep: I sleep okay. I’m up about 3-4 times a night to potty.

What I miss: Tanning. Being proud of getting on the scale. Feeling pretty.

Cravings: Strawberry Mentos and Coke. Healthy, huh?

Symptoms: Little nauseous in the mornings, my energy is coming back though.

Best moment this week: All the love I received at a wedding shower this past weekend. It’s so nice to be able to talk about it with people.

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We've had a busy week! I did lots of hair this past weekend and stayed late several days last week at the salon, so tonight it feels good to just chill! I feel bad because my husband has been eating cereal every night due to the fact that I'm too tired and lazy to make dinner (not that we can't live off cereal, HA!).

An update on school, I have 14 weeks left! I can't believe it. I'm SO excited and SO ready to be done, done, done! It's been a really good experience though and I'm still learning a ton. I've started looking around at some salons in the area and hopefully I'll have an idea of the exact one by the end of February to mid March.

I wish I had more exciting things to share, but we've been pretty low key lately. I'll try to stir up something fun pretty soon. :)

14 Week Update

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along: 14 weeks

Size of baby: About 3.5 inches, about the size of a lemon

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 8 lbs. EEK!

Maternity Clothes: None yet. I am having to wear a belly band now though.

Gender: I’m not sure yet……….we have an idea but we’ll see in a few weeks J

Movement: None yet

Sleep: I sleep okay. I’m up about 3-4 times a night to potty.

What I miss: Working out and tanning. Vain I know.

Cravings: Not really any sort of cravings. More like, if something sounds good I HAVE to eat it.

Symptoms: Still have fatigue, a little nauseous in the mornings, but other than that I’m feeling pretty good.

Best moment this week: Getting a Doppler from my friend so we can hear the heartbeat at home (don’t worry, we don’t over do it J)